Ten Lies

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

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Irritating, belligerent, argumentative and occasionally insulting, he is, in short, despite his appearance, almost exactly like Ray Vecchio. My heart is empty, but I will stay the course, if only because he is a good policeman. Perhaps there are things to be learned from him. Such as. . .well, such as how to render a malfeasant cooperative, if somewhat terrified, by sheer force of personality.

*

I won't go over there again. It's too difficult to sit that close to him, to smell him, watch him eat pizza messily, hear his unrestrained shouts when his team is winning, see his emotions play across his expressive face, feel the warmth of his arms as they're briefly flung across my shoulders, rub my leg against his thigh when I am certain he won't notice, do all of these things, knowing that he will never want me the way I want him. He loves women, he loves his ex-wife. He's told me so, many times. No, I won't go back.

*

"It's all right if you don't feel the same way."

*

If this ended between us tomorrow, I would be sad but I would endure. My life would continue fairly much as normal, and I would come to think of my time with Ray as an enriching experience. I would be satisfied. In any case, it's an inevitability. Everyone leaves, eventually. Everyone leaves me. Ray will, too.

*

Perhaps I can live here. Millions of people do. If it means having Ray, staying here in Chicago might be endurable. Difficult. Extremely difficult. But for Ray, I. . .I could do it.

>>>><<<<

I want that fucking Mountie to go back where he came from. I swear. . .! If he corrects me one more time, I will fucking take his head off. I wish I'd never met him.

*

Ooookay. . .where the hell did that dream come from? It's not like I've ever thought about another guy like that before. I mean, it's not like I'm queer, or anything.

*

"Oh yeah, Fraser, I just hate it when you put your tongue right th--aaaaahhh!"

*

"No, mom, I'm staying up here in Canada for a while because I need a vacation. . .just need time to think about stuff. Well, hey, it's been a tough year, ya know? It's not easy being someone else. And, there's, uh, Stella. That's it, too. I never had time to really deal with the divorce, you know, so maybe this'll be a long vacation, and Fraser says there's lots of stuff to do, which is pretty funny, because so far I haven't seen anything but snow, heh. Yeah, of course I'll call you. Don't know what the plans are. We're just gonna see what happens."

*

Of course I'm coming back. It's not like I'd stay here forever.

Comments

[chesamus.livejournal.com]

we lie to ourselves better than anything, don't we? cleverly done!

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

We sure do. Thanks for your comments~

[wildmachinery.livejournal.com]

"Oh yeah, Fraser, I just hate it when you put your tongue right th--aaaaahhh!"

Loved this. Reminded me of Livia's DS sedoka ... a story in two verses. Wonderful. :)

-mercy

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Loved this. Reminded me of Livia's DS sedoka ... a story in two verses. Wonderful. :)

Thank you! I am deeply flattered.

[theodosia.livejournal.com]

"Above all else... to thine own self be true."

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

"Above all else... to thine own self be true."

Thou canst not then be false to any man.

Go, Willie.

[bluster.livejournal.com]

Sometimes we lie to ourselves and we *know* we're not telling the truth. We just work really hard to believe it for the moment. Of course, other times we think we're being entirely truthful, but thankfully it becomes a lie.

This was very nice.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Denial ain't just a river.

[lamardeuse.livejournal.com]

In any case, it's an inevitability. Everyone leaves, eventually. Everyone leaves me. Ray will, too.

::sniff:: I already have a cold, missy! Don't you be blocking my sinuses any more than they are already! :)

As always, gorgeous.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

As always, you are too kind.
Feel better soon.

[ozsaur.livejournal.com]

Interesting the lies you picked for each person. They are all very much in character. And ten lies for the price of one, pretty cool.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

And ten lies for the price of one, pretty cool.

They were having a sale.
Thanks for the comments!

[akite.livejournal.com]

Oh, very nice, Shay. The lies we tell ourselves, I'm glad with these two that they are lies.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Me too! Thanks, A.

[the-star-fish.livejournal.com]

Ahhhhhh.

Mmmmmmm.

Wow.

Very impressive.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Well, that's lovely to hear, thanks! Personally, I'm not sure it says what I set out to write. Had an entirely different game plan, which got shot to hell.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Thanks, jodie~!
BTW glad to hear Lavender is doing well. Can hardly wait~

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

I totally agree. Thanks for commenting~

[7ying.livejournal.com]

You've got it all. *bow*

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

::blushing:: Thank you!

[unoriginal-liz.livejournal.com]

This is such a lovely story. Even though it's so short you get the whole shebang, start to finish. And very in-character lies.

Liz

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Liz. I like having it called "lovely."

[imkalena.livejournal.com]

Perhaps there are things to be learned from him. Such as. . .well, such as how to render a malfeasant cooperative, if somewhat terrified, by sheer force of personality.

SNORGLE

It wouldn't be as touching it it weren't also hilarious.*g* YUM!

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Oh, you know me. Can't resist a joke. Thanks.

[byob-kenobi.livejournal.com]

Fantastic! The style really works, and you get so much in between the lines!

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[brooklinegirl.livejournal.com]

This is... You are... Damn you people, for stunning me into incoherency. This is lovely. I wish I could write like this! The implications inherent in every segment...gorgeous. Nicely, nicely done. I love the build-up and I particularly like the last lie.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

::basking:: Wowie, thanks~!
The last lie was the hardest to finalize. Funny, huh?

[helvirago]

Oh, you rock. This was wonderfully done -- a story told by its opposite.

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you! I guess it's like playing the game "Taboo" - where you have to communicate a word to your team without using the words that best describe it.
(I'm sure that means zip to everyone except me, heh!)
Thanks so much for the nice comments.