*cries* I just love how deeply Ray feels things, and that's him, exactly, here. Ouch.
Your details are exquisite, from Ray's butterflies book to Turnbull's sweetened tea to the snarky, real teenaged girls.
Ray lets Fraser kiss him, allows him to be gentle. Fraser curls around him in the dark, caressing him and crooning in Inuktitut. Ray has no idea what the words are saying, but in Fraser-speak it means "I love you," and he keeps talking, as though the soft current of his voice can somehow wash away the rage and the horror. When he falls asleep Ray doesn't dream, so maybe Fraser is on to something. Maybe Ben is his dream catcher. That's the one thing that makes any sense to Ray right now.
♥ As others have said, I'm glad there's no instant healing here -- it really will take time -- but the love is still there and real and important.
Coincidentally, a friend married to a cop was telling me today about how he had been involved in a really awful case with kids, and had come home and really become a tyrant with their kids out of fear for what could happen to them. This is a sort of "fix" for me, after hearing about that today, that Ray would be constructive rather than unreasonable!
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Date: 2008-03-18 06:37 am (UTC)Your details are exquisite, from Ray's butterflies book to Turnbull's sweetened tea to the snarky, real teenaged girls.
Ray lets Fraser kiss him, allows him to be gentle. Fraser curls around him in the dark, caressing him and crooning in Inuktitut. Ray has no idea what the words are saying, but in Fraser-speak it means "I love you," and he keeps talking, as though the soft current of his voice can somehow wash away the rage and the horror. When he falls asleep Ray doesn't dream, so maybe Fraser is on to something. Maybe Ben is his dream catcher. That's the one thing that makes any sense to Ray right now.
♥ As others have said, I'm glad there's no instant healing here -- it really will take time -- but the love is still there and real and important.
Coincidentally, a friend married to a cop was telling me today about how he had been involved in a really awful case with kids, and had come home and really become a tyrant with their kids out of fear for what could happen to them. This is a sort of "fix" for me, after hearing about that today, that Ray would be constructive rather than unreasonable!