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Title: Faster than Sound
Pairing/Characters: gen, RayV, Fraser, Bob
Episode: Letting Go
Length: 454 w
Summary: Not letting go.
You and I
Are suddenly what the trees try
To tell us we are:
That their merely being there
Means something; that soon
We may touch, love, explain.
Some Trees, John Ashbery
Number one with a bullet.
He's been plucked by the bony finger of mortality. The "bony finger of mortality?" His father snorts. A bit purple, that, don't you think? You could do better.
Along the strings inside his spine, vibration. Diminuendo. Once, he watched a guitar player stroke the strings on the frets with a hollow steel tube held over his middle finger. It made the notes stretch, dip and rise, turn sideways so that the edges gleamed. Then, it made him think of the way water travels down a windshield before the wipers take it, or the way a kingfisher aborts a dive and races its own shadow across the surface of the lake and up into the trees on the other side. Now, he imagines the bullet pressed against his spine and thinks diminuendo. Against all evidence, his father says. Sounds loud enough to me, if you can hear it over all that brooding. The kingfisher aborts its dive, races, rises.
This pain is not gunshot pain. It's elsewhereness. This pain is the strings inside his spine stretching, taut, like the tracks of a train drawn across the prairie toward the vanishing point. It begins in his body but disappears someplace beyond the horizon, a sideways gleaming stroked by a steel-coloured wind, the twisted ends clasped in Victoria's hand.
Backward, his father says. Pain is hereness. You're not doing it right. Snap out of it, man.
Diminuendo.
Pain is here, his father says. It's inthebody. In the cold, trapped by an avalanche for three days, a broken leg, I'd've died there before Buck could find me except for the pain, a reminder of what I am. A man, not an idea. Here, not someplace else. Well, that was then, of course. Nowadays, it's different. But the principle is what I'm saying, that's the same. Pain is here. What are you looking at?
Fortitude Pass.
Well, you're looking in the wrong direction. See? Here. Look here.
Two magazines beside him on the hospital bed, spilled green and blue on the white knit blanket: Field and Stream and Canadian Geographic. "Ray Vecchio" on the subscription stickers. In the chair by the window, Ray Vecchio himself, slouched like a Klimt figure asleep in geometric shadows, still wearing yesterday's clothes.
The tracks of the train drawn across the prairie. Fraser could follow them to the vanishing point.
He would have gone, diminuendo, except the bullet plucked at him, made him ring, hums now against bone.
Love is iron, son. It travels faster than sound.
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Date: 2008-08-13 06:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 02:41 pm (UTC)Hee! I'd've gone for Toboggan Today, but I thought that would be stretching it a little ;)
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Date: 2008-08-13 06:22 am (UTC)lasdkfjlkajsdlfkjaslkdjflkasjdflkjklasdf
OH YEAH, I GOT NOTHING COHERENT.
that's beautiful, heart-wrenching, horrific and TRUE.
and i love it TO PIECES.
<3
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 06:54 am (UTC)YES. THAT.
♥
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:43 pm (UTC)All just an excuse to use my new icon by snoopypez!
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Date: 2008-08-13 07:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 02:44 pm (UTC)(according to spellcheck, I can "fibrillate" you but not "defibrillate" you. Silly spellcheck!)
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Date: 2008-08-13 07:58 am (UTC)&hearts
Field and Stream and Canadian Geographic. "Ray Vecchio" on the subscription stickers.
That, right there, that's love.
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 01:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 02:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 01:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 02:51 pm (UTC)*smish*
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Date: 2008-08-13 01:41 pm (UTC)The sound of this is the most compelling in all of music, to me.
Beautifully written, Sal. I think Bob is desperate here, and trying to hide it. Oh, Ray, subscribing to those magazine for Fraser.
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:53 pm (UTC)And I'm glad Bob's desperation comes out a bit here, under his typical bluffness. yay!
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:44 pm (UTC)beautiful beauuuutiful.
Ray Vecchio himself, slouched like a Klimt figure asleep in geometric shadows, still wearing yesterday's clothes.
oh
be still my beating heart.
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:54 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2008-08-13 02:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 02:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 03:38 pm (UTC)I made that sound when I finished this story. That's what reading your work is like, sometimes. Like getting hit in the chest with a baseball bat, but in a good way. It's the language, and the phrasing, and the beauty of the connections you draw between thought and image and emotion.
Ray Vecchio himself, slouched like a Klimt figure asleep in geometric shadows, still wearing yesterday's clothes.
And love travels faster than sound. Crystalline images and perfect kernels of truth wrapped in a complex, thinky little package. No one does it like you, Sal.
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Date: 2008-08-13 03:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 03:41 pm (UTC)I love this a lot. A LOT! :)
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Date: 2008-08-13 06:54 pm (UTC)I kind of love Bob a lot. :)
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Date: 2008-08-13 05:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 07:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 05:29 pm (UTC)(also, using this icon cause it's the only Due South icon I have. Whee, Diefenbaker.)
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Date: 2008-08-13 07:04 pm (UTC)and I love your Dief icon. Because it's true!
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Date: 2008-08-13 06:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 07:27 pm (UTC)That's it bang on the head, I think. You're brain radio and mine on the same frequency. :) I think that's why he gets so floored when he faces stuff like his deep emotions or his bodily frailties--he's not used to living there. :) It's one of the things I find to be key to the intelligence of the series; that is, the way they really do explore what it is like to be a living ideal. It's a lot like Shakespeare and his kings, that way, actually. Think of Henry 5 or Richard 2, for instance.
*smish*
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Date: 2008-08-13 06:25 pm (UTC)Well, you're looking in the wrong direction. See? Here. Look here.
But, here and now, I love your Bob best.
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Date: 2008-08-13 07:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 06:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 07:31 pm (UTC)Yes! I think he's an excellent Klimt model. Or a Picasso. :)
Your icon makes me smile :)
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Date: 2008-08-13 07:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 07:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-13 08:59 pm (UTC)<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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Date: 2008-08-13 09:42 pm (UTC)That's Bob all over, isn't it? He's overtly comic and deeply serious, while Fraser is deeply serious and therefore implicitly comic. Or... something?
<3
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Date: 2008-08-13 10:20 pm (UTC)::reads again and again::
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Date: 2008-08-14 12:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-14 01:12 am (UTC)And this is just perfect. Yes yes yes to it all: "Once, he watched a guitar player stroke the strings on the frets with a hollow steel tube held over his middle finger. It made the notes stretch, dip and rise, turn sideways so that the edges gleamed. Then, it made him think of the way water travels down a windshield before the wipers take it, or the way a kingfisher aborts a dive and races its own shadow across the surface of the lake and up into the trees on the other side."
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Date: 2008-08-14 04:00 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2008-08-14 02:21 am (UTC)::gapes::
How do you DO that? Gah.
::plots to come steal some of your brainnns::
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Date: 2008-08-14 03:20 pm (UTC)You may have all my brains.
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Date: 2008-08-14 06:19 am (UTC)But for all the sneaky intelligent character stuff on Fraser, and Ray making me go RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY because he's the biggest woobie to have ever woob'd, I LOVE your Bob. You have Bob down scarily well.
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Date: 2008-08-14 03:24 pm (UTC)heh. At some point I realized that I'd stuffed a railroad metaphor inside a guitar metaphor and then reversed them later. It's like the imagery equivalent of turducken. :)
I'm so glad you like Bob here. I love Bob so much. He's like stealth wisdom wrapped in comic wisdom or something.
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Date: 2008-08-16 01:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-16 03:13 am (UTC)(also, I do have your chapters--they're on deck for tomorrow!)
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Date: 2008-08-22 03:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-22 04:12 pm (UTC)