Cheating challenge by china_shop: This Here Now

[china_shop]

F/K, K/V, R-rated, 40k.

Angst for aerye. Big angst.

This Here Now

With bordering-on-hysterical thanks to sprat and sageness for beta.

Comments

[ignazwisdom.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if I'll ever be happy again after reading this -- it was just that devastating. My poor, poor Fraser. Gut-wrenching. I had to gorge myself on mindless fluff after I finished.

[china_shop]

Oh no! But just think, what are the odds of Fraser getting amnesia and disappearing in the frozen north for two years? Seriously. This is a most unlikely tale of doom. :)

So glad to have devastated you that it worked for you. Thank you! *beam*

[ignazwisdom.livejournal.com]

What can I say -- I have a wild and rarely rational imagination. Someone could probably write a tale of Fraser being abducted by aliens and returned to Chicago after two years and I'd be all *sob* and *grief* and *angst* just the same :) Amnesia, by contrast, seems much more plausible!

[joannindiw.livejournal.com]

here via crack_van - raveninthewind led me into the Ray/Ray and I followed this rec to this story of yours and - just *inarticulate awe*. The Fraser parts - beginning and end, and RayV - willing to be cheated upon if that meant he could keep RayK, sure he'd be lost without RayK and sure that
Fraser would be fine - and Fraser, hurt, but essentially fine, in the end.

And RayK not wanting to chose, but chosing in the end...

uh, basically? wow. Thanks for the post, thanks for the link for quick feedback so I can embarass myself publically with babble...

[china_shop]

Oh yay! Thank you so much! Don't be embarrassed! *beam*

Eeeeeeeee! Crack van! Thanks for pointing that out! Eeeeeeee!

[bluebrocade.livejournal.com]

Ack! Why did I read that? WEEPING now! Great story but now you owe me a new, non-smashed to bits heart. Oh, Fraser! *clings*

[china_shop]

*gives you a shiny new heart, pre-stocked with fluffy Fraser/Kowalski goodness*

(Thank you so much! \o/ And, oooh, totally perfect icon!)

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

Here via sageness's ds_wporkshop link. This story is brutal and beautiful.

[china_shop]

Thanks so much!

[chesamus.livejournal.com]

How did I miss this one??! This hurts at the cellular level, and yet I can't see any other way to end this. Asolutely, painfully, wonderful. And now I have to go read something happy...

[china_shop]

Thank you so much! I hope you found something good and comforting. :-)

[capt-spork.livejournal.com]

Oh! That hurt something awful. Beautifully done.

[china_shop]

Thank you! *sends restorative chocolate* :-)

[exbex.livejournal.com]

I love pain fic! (no, really). This is very courageous, and I'll go as far as to say fitting. Fraser is a consummate hero, and the reality is that the hero never gets the guy or girl.

[china_shop]

It's so very hard to make everyone happy in a world without threesomes, huh? Very glad this worked for you. Thanks! :-)

[of-fkilter.livejournal.com]

I totally have Dolly Parton wailing out "Jolene" in my mind right now. "I'm begging of you please don't take my man"!

I'm loving the pain. It's dark and sad and wistful and uplifting and strong.

[china_shop]

Hee! Thanks so much! <3